4/15/11 -fighting the waters

Today was not so good once again, I would spike a fever then it would break, I would sweat profusly, this has continued for days and they tell me it can continue for some time to come. Sometimes I think I must have been terribly bad to deserve this punishment, I truly have tried to be honest, and do God's will my entire life. I guess it's all about the hand we are dealt in life. Funny thing I don't like to play cards, never did. This is nasty scary stuff and I would like to stop playing