They tell me here that everything is right on Schedule, Fever continues 24/7, Nose Bleeds continuesly, Tylenol to break the fever, fever breaks and goes right backup. And this is perfectly normal. I am sick of normal. Guess today it finally all came to head and I just got tired of all this. I am rediculiously homesick, don't see water receding anyway soon, and I am just generally in a real bad mood. They try to kill you and I feel they just might. Then I talk to a man in Waiting Room whose 21 year old daughter diagnosed in Feb. on here 21st Birthday, Had to drop out of 3rd college and take care of this disease. Felt so sorry for him and her, this Cancer does not care the age, situation, race, nothing about the person
Do we do bad things in life that store us up for this hell later in life. I have tried to be a good person all my life and this is what you get. I am really in a bad mood this evening. I want to be home and able to see the kids and Grandkids, I am so afraid Mosby will forget me, and poor Brian Chase, Bryce, Matty you can see the fear in their eyes and Grandma looks terrible. I would like to crawl into a hole and come out when this is over. They tell me I will fell better when it is over and I won't realize how great I will feel. Poopy, poopy mood today, better stop while I am ahead.
Good nite all,
Grouchy, Linda
So sorry that you have to go through this, Linda. You are right, cancer does not care who you are. You are a GOOD person and I wish I could make this all go away. Please fight HARD with all you have. Your family NEED you as much as you NEED them. Know that I, along with MANY MANY OTHERS are praying for you and your family..... Marsha
ReplyDeleteLinda-So sorry to hear of the rough, treadding waters you have had to endure this week. Maybe a positive note would be to think of this most important holy week of the church year and imagine all that water as holy indeed! Your days ahead are gloomy I know. We do pray for you daily and will continue to do so. Great seeing Megan, Matt, Matty, and Mosby in church today. Then of course, had the opportunity to talk to them at one of your favorite restaurants in town-Los Bravos!! Enjoyed watching Mosby moving with such energy. As if he is trying to tell us to celebrate your life and how strong you are. And Matty-wow, growing into such a young lady. Oh and how i won't forget her birthday this week. Sure Brian, Chase and Bryce are growing up too. Look ahead at all the joy you have to celebrate in life. Keep that head up amist all the terential downpours yet to come. Lean on your family and friends. We are all here for you and love you. LOVE your life supporters on this end--The Dant's. Brian, Tricia, Kayla, Ryan and Olivia.
ReplyDeleteLinda, this breaks my heart that you are suffering so. I pray that the SON will shine over you today and always and that HE will take this disease and chuck it. I feel so helpless as to what to say but know that I pray for you often. Sometimes I get an uneasy feeling and I know you're not having a good day.
ReplyDeleteTake care my dear friend and we are praying. Prayer warriors out there, I challenge you to remember Linda in your prayers often.
Love and prayers to my BFF,
Carol